WRITING JUST HOW I TALk

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Each week, Friday specifically, I’ll put down how my week went. Since I can’t see a therapists, and I read somewhere that talking about what you go through helps a lot, ama bombard you with my activities weakly on here. And I hope it helps me decompress and feel much better going forward. 

JUST BECAUSE I NEED TO

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We must celebrate people who walked out of their marriages. 

Nobody walks out of a healthy marriage. And a healthy marriage isn't what you see from outside, it is what the people in it say it is. 

If a good woman walks out of a dysfunctional marriage, applaud her for not getting killed. 

If a bad woman walks out of a marriage, also applaud her for not killing her partner. 

Whichever way you look at it, there is something to celebrate.

           

                                                                    Victor Ibeh

I was forced to believe that It takes someone to tell me that my prayers has been answered by God. Literally!! 

Just so my relationship won’t be over, I had to do things that I don’t believe in, follow procedures I detested, and still laugh heartily with pain knowing within myself that all what I am forced to believe was bullshit ( please don’t mind the words can’t find another word to describe what I feel). 

I was a sad woman, but society makes it look like if you leave an uncomfortable relationship, you have failed. 

I was once shouted at (a 33year old woman) for not kneeling down while praying. I was criticized because I don’t show how prayerful i am.( I have to be very loud for everyone to hear me speak to my God). Then when I don’t do as is expected, I am made out to be possessed. 

Don’t get it twisted, marriage is sweet. But please marry your type. Do not marry someone you will change to suit you, trust me it won’t work, I’ve been there. 

I was with someone that spits 🔥 and brimstone when he prays and unfortunately, I am the docile prayer kind. I interact with the man upstairs, I talk to him as if he is seated with me. But my partner didn’t see that as praying. That caused a lot of issues. 

Long and short, “it didn’t work out“.

BEFORE FRIDAY GETS HERE

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There is this guy I follow on Facebook that inspires me. 

I’ll just quote him! 

Your peace of mind and sanity are not tied to the forgiveness of anybody that hurt you.  You can do just fine without forgiving those who have hurt you.

 Ask God. He has been doing so well, even without forgiving satan.

                                                               Victor Ibeh 

I have been hurt, but my ability to forgive is not because I need to forgive to be able to move on and have peace of mind, nooooooo . I just feel you ain’t worth me brooding over you. 

He also said 

Forgiveness is a choice. You are not under any obligation to forgive people that have caused you pains.

CAN I CALL IT DAY 2!!

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Long time no post.

 I’ve hard a really really hard time with my device and the internet, so dear blog, forgive me. I’ve missed you though.

I promise to visit you again this Friday and every other Friday, because I have a lot to tell you. I am not a boring person I promise. And you’ll enjoying reading my write ups. I now have a stable device I can use to poke you 

(courtesy a very dear human) so I won’t let you down. Mgbe dvd a good I moimoi